High

i'm taking the barista course [coffee making]
the terrible thing is..
i cannot drink coffee...(wtf right?)
i will get high and do...emm..unsuitable things...==

on my first class,
i took only 3 TEASPOONS of espresso and i'm already starting to feel a little crazy
heartbeat increasing..
hands got cold..
feel like i'm floating~ (i know this would never happen on me, imagine-ing)
symtoms of being HIGH

good thing i didn't go really crazy and spoil my oh-so-wonderful reputation XD

Intermediate Patisserie Lesson 17-23

○→ suite/continue

Lesson 17: Royal Chocolate

[i love it's shininess ♥]

Lesson 18: Muscadine

Lesson 18: Rochers
[doesn't it makes you think of ferero rochers~]

Lesson 19: Heavenly Chocolate

[madness love!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥]

Lesson 20: Pleasure

Lesson 21: Raspberry and Vanilla "Treasure"

Lesson 22: Chestnut Mousse

[nice and spiky!]

Lesson 23: Passionata

[gorgeous colours~ colours of love ♥]

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Exam is near!!!!!!!!! T^T

Intermediate Patisserie Lesson 1-16

phew~
i'm half way through intermediate pastry
i didn't do well this term..(all because of that fucking asshole!!)
i'm not really impressed by what i've done..
but still,
i still love pastry~ ^^

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Lesson 1: Petits-Fours

Lesson 2: The Traveller

Lesson 3: Britanny Shortbread Biscuits

Lesson 3: Orange Spice Bread

Lesson 4: Chocolate Praline Tart

Lesson 5: Lemon Tart

[terrible..terrible...T^T]

Lesson 6: Orange Chocolate Tartlets

Lesson 7: Macaroons
[they may look ugly, but they are really sweet~♥]

Lesson 8: Puff Pastry Petit-Fours

Lesson 9: Marbled Millefeuille

Lesson 10: Pithivier

Lesson 11: St-Honore

[my worst cake yet...T^T]

Lesson 12: Three Chocolate Bavarian Cream

Lesson 13: Fraisier

[strawberry cake lahhhh!!]

Lesson 14: Chocolate Soft Cake

Lesson 15: Opera

Lesson 16: Jamaica

[temporarily, i love this cake the most~♥]

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apologies to the bad quality photos...

could never bring my oh-so-professional camera into the classroom

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sentimental part:

still trying to figure out what's happening with me

non of my cakes turned out nice this term

WHY!!

i'm trying to do my best so i can make my parents proud

and don't want my relatives to look down on me and my parents

i want them to know that being a chef is also a profession that can be compared to nutritionist or a buisnessmen

DO NOT EVER EVER LOOK DOWN ON CHEFS!!

mommy wants me to make something out for you guys to try

no, i don't want

i'm scared

why?

because you guys have golden tongues

but still,

my mother still wants me to make some

ok, fine

so i spent several nights doing research, trying to find recipes that i can make at home [i have limited resources]

i feel so damn stressed that few days

like i was going to have an exam that might cause my parents to lose face

i made tartlets

small, simple looking tartlets

it took me the whole day to make those

looks easy

but it's not..

you ate it

i was staring at you

my heart was beating

your expression changed

and you said

"why is the tart case so hard? why is it so thick?"

i couldn't help it

my tears were rolling in my eye

i gave you a smile

and said

"oh really? okay, i will make it thinner next time"

my father wanted you to have more

but i can see that you hated it

you don't even want to touch it when i first place the tupperware on the table
my heart shattered..

but i'm never going to give up!!

i'll show you guys

i can do it

ME!!

VALERIE PANG SHERLEEN

WILL BE A GREAT PASTRY CHEF!!!

WATCH OUT!!!

p.s the "you"s is talking about one of my relative